Wednesday, May 21, 2008
1:40 AM
Been pretty free now, therefore i shall update my blog. Had my sort of first quarallel with marc tt day after RP match... was feeling sad and demoralised after the game, after i recieved his sms i was so sad yet a little angry. i understand his intention, his concern, but in the past to me, basketball was the most important ting in my life. I could say even now ba altho not as much as b4... Altho i know i wasnt well enuff to play tt day, but i will play... altho i noe i'm in pain, i'll still play.. I'm sorry but i juz couldnt stop. I've been like this for yrs in my life.. it's hard for me to control myself..
Sprained my thumb during last training. It's swollen and there's bruises on the whole palm. I'm sorry i've made marc worried again. Hopefully it'll be alright so i could train on fri n sat. And jan... I'm sorry for being so fierce to u tt day.
Marc's pretty busy this whole week. Indian client came and he has his meetings and projects to complete. Worried about him overtired. Hopefully everyting will be over and weekend to arrive faster for him to rest.
I'm feeling pretty moody ytd.. i tink i might be thinking too much again.. been tinking wat marc said... Honestly speaking i felt abit stressed up being with him. I understand tt his mom is like tt but sometimes i feel tt i'm not good enuff for him.. he has all the good qualities and background.. but i've nothing at all. Listening to wat Shawn(his cousin) and his aunty's conversation made me feel so sad sometimes. like tong ren bu tong ming. it's true that ren bi ren qi shi ren, but i seriously envy them. altho i haf a great and warm family, but i always couldnt get wat i wanted. Even like study too. I reali hope i am reali wat marcus wanted... i dun wish i'll be like his da shao like wat the crazy woman says.. Mayb i'm stil affected by wat the crazy woman says abt us ba.
Bob's coming back le. lookin forward to tt bcos she promised she'll train me back! haha! Anyway i really wish to be of my best b4 i totally disappear from the world of bb... erm or shld i say retire? hahaha.. Life's juz too short to regret anyting...
*praying for ppl in myanmar and china... Pls bless them.. *
the wonderer
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Chia WeiYan
22 years old
September 9 1986
Working Society
wishes
why can't i have these instead?
- A happy life
- Experience a miracle
- Own Laptop/PC
- Everyone to be happy
- A chance to study university