Friday, June 6, 2008
2:16 PM
I've pray for the day to come.. looking ways n means to go.. n i once gave up. Gave up the idea to study overseas.. I was tinking abt tt this whole week when all my frens encourage me to study again. I looked for loans, schs and course fee n everyting. But everyting is just so expensive! My big prob is now money. Can anyone tell me what i could do? I wanted to give up bcos there's nth much i could do if i reali wan to go. My parents' are not goin to sponsor me at all, not even the interest. I was tinking of take study loan, and maybe they could help me alittle on the interest part, but after last night i knew it's impossible to ask them for help. Why wat ever tings i do or plan to do, they'll surely discourage me. why? not even words of encouragement. I so fed-up. Why is it me tt i haf to give up my studies for my sis n bro? why is it that they can study wat they wan and i had to do it myself? I'm so sick abt everyting. They ytd told me they had an issurance policy for me, but u know wat? They cancel all the siblings' policy except mine bcos it was a MISTAKE. They are supposed to haf my bro's but the insurance agent got it wrong n cancel all except mine, so they say they kept mine. i was like WTF ytd!
This is life, reality... it's not watever u wan or wan to do, u can haf it or do. It's not tt i'm not trying hard. But it always seem so far away... You could go with ease, but i cant.. i need to depend on myself.. it's not as simple as i tink. it's so difficult.. I felt like giving up.. =(
the wonderer
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Chia WeiYan
22 years old
September 9 1986
Working Society
wishes
why can't i have these instead?
- A happy life
- Experience a miracle
- Own Laptop/PC
- Everyone to be happy
- A chance to study university
