Wednesday, July 30, 2008
10:07 AM
Went to garden fest again ytd with my colleagues. Noticed the amount of changes were made from the first day.. and the flowers are withered. It's kinda of sad. But I walked around the place the second time and noticed more things... like the specific flowers they used and all. Mayb it's true that u wont be able to notice everything the first time u go. I'm glad i was given a free ticket from my colleague. Thanks joyce! Bought 2 cactus back and i place them in the office! So happy! After everyting i went straight to marc's house. He's having bronchitis. So worried. Hope he'll get well real soon! He was given 2 days mc.. but as usual he went to work the next day. He's just too workaholic..
So fustrated when i went home from marc's house with a running nose. It's so suay la! I wan to be ok! i wan to have a nice weekend! No more illness plssssssssssssss! Right now... the nose just jogged once a while.. I cannot afford to be sick! Damn it.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
9:02 AM
Yesterday was great... having a great chat with siewling when i visited her. Just like old times.. and i missed her goldie! She simply just hope towards me when she saw me.. and i really saw an aging golden..but at least she's healthy. =) Left her house nearly 11pm then took cab home.
Reach work early today because there's no happy meal in the morning. =( Marc's sick again. His sickness lasted so long.. since that day when we had friendly with stackers. He goin to see doc and i really hope it's not bronchitis. I'm really praying lo. haiz. =( Even tho he's not working today... he cant even have a proper mc. He's goin to work from home. -____- it's really wat the hell lo. I just hope he can have sufficient rest. I can give everything for the exchange of his well-being. God bless him.
Going to site now.. Hope i wont get bad news from him..
God bless siewling, huiqin, phyllis, ah qin and jan for good recovery..
God bless zhengfang, jo and nik for good health and everyting smooth sailing.
Friday, July 25, 2008
12:24 PM
People have been telling me this is their last yr playing for hkn.. some knew where they are going next while others are still thinking about their future in basketball. Basketball has always been a game that unites all my teammates as one.. and certainly, it made me know all my fellow friends. During these 8 years of my basketball, there are so much people who came and left.. from teammates that we see every week and even most of the time.. to hi, bye friends... To think back, this is what i called- LIFE. 天下没有不散之宴。
I told them i am playing my last year too.. It seems that after i left... maybe there aint any hkn anymore. It feels kind of sad to think that i have to leave the team that i've been in ever since i graduated from secondary school. I think it's 舍不得 ba. Nikkole was telling me she's joining back dragonboat's team and she missed her netball too. I think i'll miss balling alot after i quit ba. I'll miss all my fellow teammates as well. Gals, whereever you will be next time, i hope we gals can always remember that we are great teammates once... and we will always keep our hkn spirit no matter what you all do- chiong ar!
Since it's our last year in hkn for so many of us.. let it be a memorable one. Let us leave with no regrets.. Let us do our very best for this very last time.. Let me have the honour to play one last year with all of you.. so i hope everyone is sincere in playing and of cos come for training pls. we don't want to be there begging for people to attend training.. We wan all of you to come on your own account..
JIA YOU team hkn.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
1:51 PM
Met nik for dinner on tues. Her friend came along to join us. Her name was Marinda. Marc says sounds like a canned drink name. wat the hell lo. To my surprised... Nik's bf broke up with her on her bday! Wat a bastard man.. how could he have chosen such a day. I'm worried abt nik but she seemed very calm abt everyting. Accompanying her till 10 plus then i went home. Sorry gal i cant be there for u when u need help. JIA U!
Ytd went to watch Np's match... so sad got trashed by ite. But i could see all the juniors improving. Bob, dun be too upset over the match... JIA U k? be more tough and chiong all the way in k? Jan, u need to qie like wat u used to.. dun tink so much k? u can do it de.. and take care of ur injuries.. jia u NP!
Was talking to ah qin abt me and siewling.. Actuali i'm happy she's willing to be friends with me again. Altho i duno hw true this can be.. but i hope it works if both sides makes an effort.. so i decided to start the move by asking her whether i could visit her. To my surprised, without any hesitation.. she agreed. Thanks sl.. thanks for allowing me to be friends with you again once more. I hope everyting works out well, i hope we can talk again.. i hope we wont be like strangers on court or even off court. It may seem awarkard but i tink it's worth giving it a try.. Thanks marc for understanding everyting. =)
tt's all folks for today.. i hope everyting will be well for everyone esp those who are injured...
Huiqin, siewling, phyllis, ah qin, jan.. get well soon and get back on court! JIA U!
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
9:49 AM
The last night at the wake was so difficult to pass by.. by 4am, all the ppl are asleep except me and my sis.. we haven even shut our eyes at all. We have been keepin an eye on my grandpa to prevent cats from coming. The Night was long. So long. Finally it was 7am and i went off with my cousins to get macdonald's breakfast for everyone. 22 meals is alot and the macdonald's staffs were shocked. Everyone ate and the pastor came.. We sang the last song and the last prayers to my grandpa and he set off... walking behind the van he's sitting was so torturous.. everyone started crying.. crying so badly... i am trying not to cry at all.. holding back my tears.. walked some distance then we took deliang(my sis bf)'s car to Mandai. On the way there, everyone kept quiet. We went into the hall when we reached. There laid my grandpa's coffin. Everyone sat down to listen to the pastor once again. Aft tt, we are to see my grandpa for the very last time as we offered him rose at the same time. I held back my tears when i see him and i said good bye to him.. When he was pushed away.. i dare not watch at all.. cos i'm afraid of crying.. we then walked to the viewing hall to watch my dad pushed in for cremation. I saw my grandpa slowly pushed in and i started to cry.. I'm still not strong enuff to hold back my tears. I cried sliently and i cried even more when i saw my dad's eyes reddened. He's holding back all this while. JIA U dad.
Aft all tt has been done, everyone's so tired. It's sad but it's the truth.. the world wont stop evolving without u.
Thanks Lob bro and jan for wanting to come to the wake but i understand because both of u have polite. Sorry to jan to cause misunderstanding, i din mean much from my previous blog. I'm just upset over my grandpa's departure.. and i'm feeling down.. tt's why i wrote someting like tt. It doesnt mean it's u k? dun take it to heart. But i thank u bcos u haf the heart to come and tt's good enuff le. thanks alot.. =)
I'm so tired.. I need a break..
Friday, July 18, 2008
2:08 PM
I was sick on wed, thus i din watch NP's match again. I decided to go home and rest so i went home early, calling my mom that i'll be going home for dinner. Everythings seems well... reaching home, i sensed someting weird. The door's totally locked and the food are cooked half way. I called my mom and her phone rang at home.. i was more stunned. Then i called my dad to know that my grandpa passed away... It's so sudden. So damn sudden. I wanted to go over, but i was asked to stay at home and wait because there's nothing i could do there and i was sick too. I waited for them to come home and got to know grandpa died on the sofa. He was well at 2pm that day and he even called my dad... but around 6pm, my uncle found him dead on the sofa half naked. He lied there motionless..cold and stiff.. Then they waited for the docs to come and prononuced him dead.
The next day was tiring.. everyone couldnt sleep at all the night when we know grandpa passed away. We woke up earli in the morning and set off to my uncle's house because the funeral is held at his void deck. We waited for the singapore casket to set up everyting and then they pushed my grandpa where he's sleeping in his nice coffin in. Everyone went forward to see my grandpa.. everyone started weeping.. i cried too. It's the first time i saw grandpa in such a nice shirt. Grandpa, u look so handsome and great. =) We started to get busy with all the stuffs. Grandpa is a christian since 1999 so tings are much more easier than chinese funeral. Cos there are less things to prepare. Everyone's so tired.. and i see the tired eyes of my parents i wanted to cry.. I'm being strong this 2days... I nv cried since the last weep. I wanna be strong. I didnt dare to go close to the coffin because i'm afraid i'll cry again.
Marc came down yesterday.. i miss him so much.. he's my emotional support. thanks baby, although i can see u're still not well enuff but you still come down. thanks baby..
Yesterday alot of my sis's colleagues and friends came down.. i started to reflect on myself..
Where are all my friends when i need them? I didnt tell much ppl tho because it's not a good thing to announce too. But it seems that i had no close frens except jo. Jo told me she couldnt come down because of her religion thingy, i understand. And i didnt even told her about this. This is what i called true fren ba. Thanks jo.
Today i'm goin to see grandpa again later.. Today will be his last day... He's goin tml.. I hope i wont cry tml.. i hope i wont break dwn when i see him goin in tml.. I will miss u grandpa..
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
9:30 AM
It's been a worrying weekend... Marc has been sick the whole weekend. We are supposed to go henderson bridge on friday and i'm supposed to make him jump on the bridge with the GP tickets that i've bought but we didnt go in the end bcos he's so sick. In the end i surprised him with the tickets in his room. =) I'm glad he's so happy abt it. Although marc was nagging at me for spending so much money.. but wat's $600 to exchange for my baby's smile and happiness? I dun mind spending tat amount just for tt. =) ok all of u must tink that i'm crazy. haha.
I duno wat to say but i'm so touched that despite being so sick, marc insist to watch my frenly match against stackers.. being blown by the wind at the court. i can see he felt worst. the constant sound of him coughing and sneezing makes me lose concentration of the whole game... but when i'm in the game... i gave my best, team! =) i tink becos i hadn't eaten for the whole day, i seriously nearly black out during the game.. lucky hock seng sense someting wrong with me and sub me out. didnt wan to scare anyone including marc.. so i kept quiet. But aft resting, i felt much better but when he put mi in the game again... i'm constantly out of breath. i tink i need to train up my stamina or shld i say eat? haha. Aft the game, marc sent xinying to the mrt and lob bro home. He looks better on the way home.. but at night.. everyting seems terrible. He's terribly hot at night. He looks terrible and i'm so worried. I kept waking up to check on his temperature jus to make sure he's alright. I tried my best to make him feel better, but it seems tt he's more xinku.. =( But i'm so glad he's so much better now..! Get well soon baby!
I felt sick but i dun wan baby to worry but i tink he could see tat i'm not well. Ytd i din go to watch Np vs Tp bcos i wasnt too well... sorry jan... sorry bob.. but i'm so glad tat they lost onli by 10pts! hey gals.. u see u all can do it! dun let others look down on NP! =)
It's so weird that i'm losing my appetite greatly. I dun feel hungry at all and the sight of food makes me full already.. even if u hand me my fav. fries in front of me right now.. i could tell u,'no thanks'. For the entire 4 days... i ate too little i tink, till my gastric kept complaining.. and mayb tt's explains the floating feeling when i ate too much med and too little food. i duno wat's happening to me... Am i too worried or wat? i duno.
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
4:40 PM
It's been months that i'm being involve in this bloody china project! It's torturing man, as the site was so big that it equivalent to more than 10 soccer fields man. And this is just 1 phase of it only! I cant believe i'm handling it. hahahaha. Finally today done and finished and submitted for my phase II part 2 zone 2! It's finally done! But i'm 1 day late. I must keep with the schedule man to prove my efficency man! hahaha. Currently i'm slacking here and waiting for the time to pass. Finally a chance to slack. I have been freaking stress out with the woman beside me couldnt finish cadding it for me.. =) now it's all done.
Marc was showing me this news on australia that gays are able to have children using rent-a-womb women. They are able to select the sexes of their childern but they had to pay like US$80k! Of cos it's not them who bear the children but the women. It's reali wat the hell lo. It's like every weird thing is happening in Aussie! hahahaha But tt's interesting to know too. But what i can say is Gays in Aussie are bloody rich! hahahaha!
Cant wait for work to end to watch my KungFu Panda with marc. hahaha It's been like weeks that i wanted to watch.. FINALLY! thanks baby... Marc was telling me he saw sloggi looking for the nicest ass on newspaper... hahaha i strongly suggest Marc to go.... hahahahaa cos HE'S GOT A NICE ASS!!!!!!!! opps... i think he'll kill me for saying that in this blog.. but who cares right? hahahhaha!
Don't worry baby, i'm feeling better now.. not so stress up thanks to you.. I'll slowly adjust myself and not to think so much k? =)
Loves.....
