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Friday, July 18, 2008

2:08 PM

I was sick on wed, thus i din watch NP's match again. I decided to go home and rest so i went home early, calling my mom that i'll be going home for dinner. Everythings seems well... reaching home, i sensed someting weird. The door's totally locked and the food are cooked half way. I called my mom and her phone rang at home.. i was more stunned. Then i called my dad to know that my grandpa passed away... It's so sudden. So damn sudden. I wanted to go over, but i was asked to stay at home and wait because there's nothing i could do there and i was sick too. I waited for them to come home and got to know grandpa died on the sofa. He was well at 2pm that day and he even called my dad... but around 6pm, my uncle found him dead on the sofa half naked. He lied there motionless..cold and stiff.. Then they waited for the docs to come and prononuced him dead.

The next day was tiring.. everyone couldnt sleep at all the night when we know grandpa passed away. We woke up earli in the morning and set off to my uncle's house because the funeral is held at his void deck. We waited for the singapore casket to set up everyting and then they pushed my grandpa where he's sleeping in his nice coffin in. Everyone went forward to see my grandpa.. everyone started weeping.. i cried too. It's the first time i saw grandpa in such a nice shirt. Grandpa, u look so handsome and great. =) We started to get busy with all the stuffs. Grandpa is a christian since 1999 so tings are much more easier than chinese funeral. Cos there are less things to prepare. Everyone's so tired.. and i see the tired eyes of my parents i wanted to cry.. I'm being strong this 2days... I nv cried since the last weep. I wanna be strong. I didnt dare to go close to the coffin because i'm afraid i'll cry again.

Marc came down yesterday.. i miss him so much.. he's my emotional support. thanks baby, although i can see u're still not well enuff but you still come down. thanks baby..
Yesterday alot of my sis's colleagues and friends came down.. i started to reflect on myself..
Where are all my friends when i need them? I didnt tell much ppl tho because it's not a good thing to announce too. But it seems that i had no close frens except jo. Jo told me she couldnt come down because of her religion thingy, i understand. And i didnt even told her about this. This is what i called true fren ba. Thanks jo.

Today i'm goin to see grandpa again later.. Today will be his last day... He's goin tml.. I hope i wont cry tml.. i hope i wont break dwn when i see him goin in tml.. I will miss u grandpa..